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[Jul. 25th, 2010|12:50 am] |
Mummy:
"Girl, my head feels numb. It's bleeding. I'm bleeding. I'm scared. I can't feel a thing. My hands are damn pain. I tried to stop myself from falling with my hands but I don't know why I just can't. I don't know why is this happening. Why did the dog do this to me? Why is this happening to me? It's very pain now. I'm really scared. I tried to stop, why! Is there a hole? I saw a hole! Is it still bleeding? I don't want to be stitched! I don't want to go to hospital! Pain! Is there a hole?!"
All these were said just seconds after everything happened. I thought it was just a very small cut but when I came back with tissue paper, I saw her whole face filled with blood, literally WHOLE FACE. And when she showed me the wound, I could see a whole patch of skin coming off her forehead. Do you know how horrifying it was? I have my mother on the floor, bawling, panicking and I had to pretend to be calm and try to calm her down. After washing her face, she was still claiming how scared she was with her whole mouth and face stained with blood. Quickly, I brought in all the clothes drying outside (requested by her) and shut everything.
Throughout the journey, I had to reassure her that it's nothing and she'll be fine. But inside, everything was boiling.
I never blamed Sunshine. Never once. I felt that it was all my fault. Yes, it's an accident and nobody can prevent it. But if I din't insist in bringing the dog in, this would never have happened. Anyway, enough explanation. I'm sorry to flood here, but I just needa get everything out cause the fucking horrifying scene keeps repeating itself in my mind and it's so scary, especially just after I finally managed to get over the juowi's incident.
And this is all I need:
hweejian says (12:00 AM):
erm no
tt;s nt mean
it's cause u are worry
it has nth to do with meaness
cause u are worried for the future
which is a v you thing
and tt doesnt make u mean
just like hw u are scare of loving someone hard
cause u are scare of getting hurt
it's the same logic
u are scare of keeping sunshine
cause u are scare a similar situation will take place
so tt doesnt make u mean
mean are ppl who throw their dogs away
because it grows larger
and become not cute
mummy:
were you scared by just now? Don't worry okay, it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself.
I will post advertisements tomorrow. |
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[Apr. 13th, 2010|10:52 pm] |
I'm going to let this blog collect dust for some time because I feel damn restricted here.
Okay, gonna blog, do some work then go sleep because I feel like puking again. ARGH. |
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[Apr. 12th, 2010|10:40 pm] |
(:(:
I had a good time with the girls today, but I din't shop enough!
There're so many pretty pretty things at Bugis Streeet!
At least I got to smile for 3 short hours (:
& I haven't smiled this much for quite some time already.
Tomorrow personal date with pikajuan!
POLAROID&INSTAXXX! =DD
I want to be a lil happy pretty girl again.
I really want.
Although I miss some things,
there are many things that have changed.
I can no longer talk to you in the same manner,
look at you the same way,
have the same feelings towards you,
and I have no idea why.
Do you have the ability to change things back?
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[Apr. 11th, 2010|09:31 pm] |
I don't know what's going on now. I just know that everything's going wrong. From laptop to small lil minor things to relationships to myself. I'm going insane. And all I am doing is to find something to occupy my time so that I will not think. Since lappy is still under repair and my dad's laptop can't open the older version of doc, I shall stay back after work starting from Wed to complete proposal and ppt.
Work isn't too bad now since I've got my own set of speakers now, and I can listen to music during work. Busy times take things off my mind too. Initially, I did not want to blog but I really need a place where I can let out. Sides, I have my dates to look forward after work nowadays. More things to stop me from thinking.
I want to restart everything.
Isit possible? |
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[Apr. 7th, 2010|06:08 pm] |
The week started off very badly, hopefully it will end well. Bad things Just happen one after another and many a times, they almost drove me insane. The comforting thing was I got to meet pikajuan last night and her actions touched me(: makes me happy despite what has happened.
And thanks Kelvin and yanen for those comforting messages(: Today started off very badly too, but it turned out well cause I had work to do and time passed very quickly. Besides that, I had nice small chats and discussions with my supervisor and and and I can't wait for the execution of the project. (: and I was chatting with pikajuan on gmail too, so work was fine. In fact, it's actually quite sad that work is the only thing that can make me happy now, besides the sunflower that the silly girl drew for me this morning. Anyway, I'm meeting gf sooooon! (:(: double yipppie! And I will be all alone on office tmr from 12-5. Quite awesome but scary when I have to close up the office by myself, especially when it's so cluttered after the free furniture arrived today. Jie, I miss you and I want hughug! Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2010|06:37 pm] |
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MISSING IN ACTION
for a period of time.
Cause there isn't nothing much to update about, and even it is 80% similar for the entries in my logsheet everyday. That explains how boring my life is right now.
I'm very upset with the fact that my only entertainment will not be around in the office for three whole weeks and there is no motivation for me at work now, hoping the day will end soon soon. In the morning, I also don't get to see my eyecandies anymore. Besides that, toshiba needs to see a doctor soon and its memory might be gone. ): And mummy comes home @#$%^&*^%$ everyday. It's a badbad week. ):
Kope from someone's blog. I wish it will happen too. But every single thing is just my wishful thinking.
P.S I want to date date on Wed, Thurs and Fri. ): |
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[Apr. 4th, 2010|12:51 am] |
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Thanks pikajuan for these two photos with words,
or whatever people call them.
They made me feel better,
or rather the first one showed me the importance of me feeling better.
And the second one made me realise,
I need to ask for a change,
cause if I don't ask, the answer will always be no. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2010|11:27 pm] |
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After a cool bath, I feel so much better. We were sticky, stinky and sweaty after attempting to find Marina Bay MRT station and was lost, and walking from Henderson Waves Bridge all the way to Hort Park, which is a freaking long distance. But on the way, we took many pretty photos, exercised quite a bit and had a very memorable day! (: At least it's really a day away from the usual dates in my room, watching downloaded movies and him playing facebook (I still treasure/enjoy those days!).
Oh oh oh, did I mention I saw MANY very pretty white and yellow flowers that made me very happy, orchids that are 5 times larger than the usual ones we see and cute lil angmoh kids running around! Despite ending up very tired, I'm a lil happy girl cause I love the photos!
And I have a confession to make! I'm a bad girl cause I was so tired that I did not give up my seats to this elderly despite sitting on the reserved seat. Sorry! I'm still feeling so bad up till now! ):
Oh yars, service in the morning was good and kept me awake despite only sleeping for 3 hours last night. I love the worshipping cause of the two awesome worship leaders, though I thought they should not have broadcast the worshipping part and have our own one at Tampines before combining with Woodlands via conference for the message. Oh wells. Pastor Rony's son is getting better, and I love his analysis of the bible but he kept bending forward, which made him seemed urgent and needed the toilet badly. HAHA.
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About yesterday, I pranked Chin Juo Wi! WOOOOHOOO! He actually believed when I said this car's side mirror banged my arm and it was swelling. So when I met him, he was all over me, trying to find the injury. But we were all pranked by Abital ): And I'm still not over it cause I really want to work in a zoo and earn $80!
After dinner, we were deciding before movie-ing or timbre-ing, and we chose drinking! Epic night with Shaun having to scream orgasmic-ly every time we get punished, Chengxi who has to say 'Hi' loudly and raise both hands when Shaun does the scream. And Shaun kenna 63 times in one shot. *3 cheers!*
That's all for now.
More camwhoring tomorrow at train tracks! (: |
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[Mar. 31st, 2010|10:34 pm] |
I decided to go back to school to fond that guy today,
Managed to dine with him and 4 other dudes at market (:
I missed going back to school!
So I'm going to join my class for hi club lessons again!
But before that, I need to go find my notes first. Shit.
Hahaha.
Remebered I used the file to hand up counselling essay.
And wahs, it feels so damn good being able to wear shorts out again. Haha. Optimism is back!
Got Fyp and huge band competition to plan,
Motivated to work and have lots of fun too.
I need my night life!
Movies anyone? Dinner anyone? Timbre anyone? I'm treasuring every minute I have with you!
Nice short date tonight! (: Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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